My name is Jessica, I’m 20 years old and I have been diagnosed with three mental health disorders: Aspergers syndrome, bipolar disorder type 2 (ultra) rapid cycling and dissociative syndrome, not otherwise specified. This blog is about what it’s like to live with mental health problems, and this is also a place for my alters to express themselves.
That last disorder means that “I” have multiple personalities (I know, I know… I’m mental)
Here is a little introduction to my alters:
The rational part, RP – This part manages my everyday life. They are agender and we refer to them as they. RP doesn’t really feel anything, but act strictly on logic. They are also the host and gatekeeper of this system.
Wynn– 7-14 year old happy, mischievous, good-hearted, hyperactive girl who loves (especially fluffy) animals. She enjoys pop music, kids movies and hugs. Oh, and she loves anime, japanese food and fashion.
Nemo– Is a 3 year old, very traumatized little boy. Most of the time he is very sad, hurt and passive, though he has had lucid moment where he’s interacted with other alters or even people on the outside. He barely moves and very rarely speaks when fronting.
Euphemie/Phemie- Nemo’s half-sister and personal protector. A sarcastic, witty, no-nonsense 17 year old girl with a love for How I met your mother, Game of thrones (favorite character: Tyrion) and weird asian/B-movies and anime. she also has a passion for words, especially quotes. A darker side of her may emerge if the system is being put under a lot of pressure.
Mimi Gwen- Also known as Mims (pronounced meems) , Gwennie or Molly. She is a energetic, kind, compassionate, playful and somewhat flirty 14-16 year old, with a love for purple and dark clothes. Mimi has faith in people, and tries to see the good in everyone and everything, however, she is far from naive and quite capable of fending for herself.
Stranger- Is deeply unhappy with being an alter, especially being a male alter in a female body. He is 13 years old, and although he does have a “real” name, he keeps it to himself and prefers being known as Stranger. He struggles with self-harm and disordered eating/distorted body image.
Benjamin/Benji- 8-15 year old traumatized boy. Unlike Nemo, Benji is not passive or “frozen”. While he does not disclose much about himself, and is rather wary around others, he does interact with other alters and people on the outside. In fact, him and Wynn are almost inseparable.
Kathryn- 25 year old internal self helper and Phemie’s best friend. Kathryn is shy, insecure and a bit naive, but also very loyal and loving. She does not front much, but rather looks after everyone in the inner world.
Sinner- They are genderfluid, and I’m honestly not sure which pronouns they prefer but I’ll be using they. They named themself Sinner due to their fascination/ obsession with the seven deadly sins, and will often personify them, especially when the system is under pressure. Sinner may act selfishly, be greedy and lazy. However, they have calmed down and become more cooperative.
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