It’s hard to describe.. Sometimes, someone will be out and doing their thing while making plans for the day, they will suddenly hold their breath for a moment and when they exhale, it’s like they just shrink into nothing. Like, one second they are themselves and then suddenly so much insecurity and exhaustion washes over them (? The system? I don’t know) and it’s like.. I don’t even know what happens, they just start questioning everything and themselves and all the plans for them day suddenly seem unappealing, they just want to hide somewhere.
I don’t know, maybe it’s just dissociation, or a switch or.. I don’t know, i just don’t know..