We’ve been away for a while, but now that we are back I thought I’d give a quick update on what the hell we’ve been up to.
First, we attended a camp way up north here in Sweden. It lasted five days, i think… We went to this camp last year too and it was so much fun, which makes it all the more disappointing that it was pretty horrible this year. Some of the other kids, especially the “younger” ones (14-16) were pretty fucking annoying, yelling and nagging and fighting all the time. And of course since we were around people who we weren’t comfortable with and who don’t know about us being multiple, us alters had to hold back and stay low, which was pretty fucking hard considering how upsetting the screaming and bitching of some of the other kids was. Needless to say, by the time we got on tge train back home we were very feeling very numb yet irritable and exhausted as all hell.
We got back home on a Friday night and headed off to Berlin monday morning. We (us and the body’s family) go to Belin for two weeks every year to visit some relatives. Once again we had to hold back while being surrounded by the family’s bullshit fights and shit. While we did have some good moments, most of the trip was kinda ruined by all the bitching and moaning. Also, we noticed that, when the second week came around, we had forgotten
Coming back home we were pretty bad off, stomach was aching all the time, we were so anxious and irritable and low.. It was just a big-ass mess.
That is when the bf suggested we go visit his family, since they were going celebrate his grandmother’s birthday. After that we were planning on going camping for a few days, just the two of us. However, we had to change plans, so we ended up only visiting his family and attending the party. The bf’s family is nice and welcoming, but we were still getting worse. Thoughts of self harm emerged along with anxiety, doubt and depression. Had a good talk with the bf and Mimi came out for a while, and we’ve been doing so much better since we came back.
Today, we had our first art therapy session after a month’s break, and it felt really good getting started again.
What have you guys been up to?