So, I’m still in hospital. I’ve spent most days just wanting to be transferred to the right unit, since it was full when I was admitted. Therefore, I haven’t really discussed my situation and possible treatments with a doctor yet. However, the psychiatrist that got me admitted recommended ECT. It sounds quite brutal to me but then again I can’t say that I know much about it. If you have had any experience with ECT and would like to share, I’d be so grateful!
They did however change my dosis Seroquel from 300 mg to 400 mg. I’ve tried this dosis before, and, just like last time, it mutes my alters… Not too happy about that, but I’ll talk to the doctor tomorrow and see what they have to say.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, about a lot of things. I think what I need to do now, to get better, is 1. Learn how to let go of control and give my alters more freedom to say what they need to say and do what they need to do. I really need to stop preventing them from doing their “job”. 2. I want to go back to school, starting off slowly with 2-3 classes per day so I don’t get tpo far behind. 3. Start working out a few times a week. 4. Talk about and figure what difficulties and hardships have made me feel so much worse these last couple of months, where they are coming from and what I can do about them, with help from mental health care professionals. I know that I have three diagnoses already, but I really do feel like I still have problems that can’t be explained by the disorders I’ve been diagnosed with. I also want to discuss my alters’ problems more. I’m just hoping that I’ll be heard and taken seriously.. I’m not sure if I could cope with being dismissed and belittled one more time…
I hope you are all doing great and I’ll talk to you later!